Perspective and Mood

Some days things just seem right. Hopeful, interesting, fun. Happy.

These are the days when I just can't help but sing. I want to dance. I feel like I look bomb ass sexy. And I want to show it.

Even when I have lots to do, I'm confident that I can finish it. I feel on top of it, and I almost look forward to working hard. It's satisfying. I get experience. And best of all, I feel like I have something to look forward to afterwards.

The world is interesting. Almost anything I think about seems fascinating. The world has that worthwhile, patterned, sameness that I've been so fascinated with the past few months. And best of all, I feel like my thoughts are insightful. There's the chance that I'm thinking something that's never been said before. I have an original idea.

I want to do things. I want to work on a longer term project, faithful that I'll be able to finish at some point. I want to write in this blog, remember all of those insights. I want to meet people, hang out with people I already know. I want to be productive. I even want to relax.

What frustrates me though, is that it is only some days. Those other days aren't much worth writing about. But in all actuality, there's not really much objective difference between the two. It's just in the way I think about things. And why would I choose not to have one of these days? The thing I, and probably many other people too, need to realize is that I can choose.

I'm not denying that there's something that makes it hard to choose. As much as we'd like to believe it, most of us are not in complete control over our own minds. Too many chemicals and complicated phenomena, too many layers of abstraction. So maybe it's a bit difficult, it takes a little extra effort. But it's worth it.